•Post-Dad Father’s Day•

The Sea has restorative powers. We come to the Sea to breathe.”

“Many many years ago, while beach-walking with my young daughter, a new story came to life. We were walking, talking, looking for beach treasures, discussing the waves. We would excitedly scurry up to partially buried sand dollars only to find just a broken portion. The partial ones my daughter would bring to me, I would throw as far into the breakers as I could, assuring her that part of the magic of the Sea was that the mermaids would heal them, putting them back together to continue their journeys, so they could again be found on the beach another day. Rather like the magic of the Sea that allows the starfish to grow a new arm.

In the days that followed my Dad’s death in early March, I was bereft and drifting. I came to our beloved beach with my family but I was distant the whole time. Every morning I walked for miles on the beach, thinking, remembering, talking to the waves, crying, mourning. I wasn’t able to allow the Sea air to fill my lungs, to revive me. To heal me. One morning I was treated to the most whole-sand dollar finds I’d had in my entire life of beachcombing. It was remarkable; I saved about 20 of the best ones, left some at the beach house, some at my Mom’s house; carried a few home with me.
A hundred days later, I returned and walked on the same beach, followed the same path Dad and I had often walked while talking and watching the waves. I was treated to characteristically calm Manzanita mornings, and my walks this visit have been more peaceful, more restorative. I could finally breathe.This visit has yielded one single perfectly whole sand dollar.I held it, read it, sensed that my Dad was reminding me to give myself permission to Breathe. To continue my journeys and be able to find myself on the beach another day. To continue to work to become a good and decent man. To keep moving. And perhaps to keep casting sand dollars back into the breakers.
I have miles to go.”


2 Responses to “•Post-Dad Father’s Day•”

  1. SaaniaSparkle 🧚🏻‍♀️ Says:

    Nice blog

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